Not sure | itsgood2beback's Blog

Not sure whats gonna happen why I'm even writing this for random people to see sharing shit,why I'm even still in this website.It's almost the new year another whole year.12 more months?? of uncertainty?? I duno nothing much has changed looking back starting this year other than a few things here and their mostly for the worst most.Health's going to  hell,loosing a friend,losing my dog and a bunch of other bad shit,so much uncertainty does it ever end? wheres the end of the line the finish line? another 12 months after that than what? what else is gonna be different? maybe not much,maybe a lot will.With my luck most likely for the worst I know everyone has shit in their life some better of than me some maybe even a lot worst but still my life sucks it's not good I'm not happy wasting it away not living it.Getting eaten up,like a complete waste of years the last couple of years.Nothing ever fucking changes except for the worst I dont even wanna have hope don't wanna be disappointing when I get more of the same shit.If theirs a glimmer of hope though left somewhere in all this vasteness of emptyness and darkness I hope I get it and soon.
Happy new year "me."